All of us are mind controlled to some degree, by television, education, news, entertainment and more.  But some of us receive special treatment – “trauma-based mind control programming,” which secretly uses the hidden alters created in a person with multiple personality.

    I’ve been healing from “Multiple Personality Disorder” (MPD) since 1994, and it’s been a phenomenal ride.  Most people in my community either don’t know I’ve made this diagnosis or perhaps think I’m exaggerating.  They think I’m “too normal” or even “too successful” (at times, in ways) to be crazy.  They’re right – multiple personality is not “crazy.”  

    Splitting one’s mind is a way to keep from going crazy when something occurs that would otherwise be beyond the mind’s ability to handle it – such as sexual abuse for little children.  At the point of psychic overload, the child’s mind disconnects from their body, much like going into shock.  The brain, newly-emptied of its previous mind, continues recording the body’s experiences in a fresh, new hologram of memory, disconnected from all previous memory.  With both the earlier and the new holograms of memory residing together in the same body, but disconnected from each other, the foundation is established for a person with “multiple personalities.”  Once the pattern is established, the mind repeats it to escape subsequent stressors.

    Some people with MPD function better than others.  While the most memorable multiples in our cultural history, Sibyl and Eve, had severe problems, many people move through life with this condition, hardly drawing attention, some even functioning with great success and few suspecting their condition.  The high degree of intelligence noted in many multiples I suspect results from simply the increased capacity created by many more holograms existing in one mind.

    The more highly-functioning people with MPD have integrated their parts to some degree, meaning that more of their parts are aware of each other, can retrieve memories from each other, and can work together to help the person function.  The less-adapted alters seem to understand they must stay out of the way while in public, and so the person is able to perform exceptionally well in a variety of situations.  In private, though, much time must be spent integrating the information between the alters.

    The poorly-functioning multiples have not yet mastered their condition and learned to integrate their parts, but academic wisdom is that, once the condition is diagnosed, cure is relatively easy.

    The first departure of my psyche from my body, the original splitting event, besides keeping me sane, had another effect as well.  I believe it “pushed me through the veil” – the “veil” spoken of in so many religious and esoteric texts, credited with obscuring the reality that our minds, souls and/or spirits exist independently of our bodies.  Obviously, this knowledge came via a terrifying event, but was ultimately a blessing, of seeing.

    Why would such a blessing be necessary?  I’ve come to believe that elements of our culture are so seductive, blinding, and soul-deadening that few of us can see the reality of it, unless we are harshly ripped from its comforts.  Whether the soul chooses this, or is chosen, this is the difficult path it enters.

    The path forces those souls to experience realities others only theorize about, and gives them a far deeper view of material reality.  So, the trauma wounds us, often critically, sometimes fatally, but is also the catalyst for seeing from a larger perspective.  The material body may be hurt, and the psyche terrified, but the soul is enlarged and empowered.

    Multiple personality has been created by accident throughout time, and many cultures have honored their wounded ones as seers and wise ones, as they often become that.  Some tribes have even intentionally created multiples, planning ahead for when their elder seer would pass on.  And now it seems that our own government has been doing something similar, but for far more nefarious purposes.

    Recent movies like “The Manchurian Candidate” and “Men Who Stare at Goats” have, fortunately, helped Americans understand that our government has been pursuing for decades horrific experiments on unwitting and unwilling subjects.  

    My multiple personality disorder was created intentionally, at least in part, to serve a well-documented, government-funded research project in mind control, called MK ULTRA.  I say “in part” because researchers have discovered that many mind control subjects were chosen among children who’d already become multiple by sexual abuse in their families and were held hostage to the threat of their parents going to prison as pedophiles.  Bargained into the program, they had their multipleness reinforced, multiplied and used for the “national good.”

    In 1977, the then-CIA Director, Stanislaf Turner, testified in a special Senate Hearing that, since the late 1940s, the CIA had conducted experiments in mind control on unwitting subjects, including children, in a program called MK ULTRA.  Turner’s testimony was corroborated later by 18,000 pages of CIA documents released under the Freedom of Information Act.  

    I’d had lifelong nightmares and memories from a very young age which had never made sense but began to when I first read about MK ULTRA.  My recurring nightmare was of being of on an airbase, trying to flee, feeling drugged; and one of many memories was of being “out of my body” with rage and betrayal while riding in a vehicle with four military men.  My parents had many connections to government that might have led to my being offered for participation in this program.  I’ve thought for awhile that my parents might be CIA underlings of some sort, and in a recent year, when complaining to my father about something “the government” was doing, he retorted, “I’m the government.”

    My account, I believe, is important for a couple of reasons.  First, I want help with my personal “million dollar question,” which should also be of concern to my friends and associates:  Is my mind control programming still operational, and am I a government asset for who-knows-what purposes?  (To be clear:  If anyone ever sees me do things they think are “not me,” I need to know, and so do others.)  I have done a lot of healing, still feel it going on, and like to believe I’m near the end of it, but I can’t now make that claim in confidence.

    While thousands of children and larger numbers of adults were experimented on intensely, the masses of citizens have been bombarded by hypnotic messages via television and other media with increasingly powerful techniques.  While people have responded to pollsters, laughingly, that they know they are hypnotized by television, I contend that we all need to break our programming.

    I’ll continue this series of essays on “Healing from Mind Control” with specific events of the past decade or so, describing how my programming was conducted, how alters get attention for healing, how they interrelate, and how they are integrated.  Eventually, I expect, I’ll recount some healing events while they’re in process.  I will also be conducting a new line of research I’ve recently come across, by the former NASA computer scientist, linking UFOs to mind control.

    As I said, it’s been a phenomenal journey.